Peaceful but Killing

Today was a good day (peaceful to be precise) although I feel that there are certain things in life (at least college life) that I am missing. A group of friends from college set up a sort of get together in the form a picnic held at Zabeel park. Although I knew that I wasn't going to stay for long, I went there to have some fun. But when the picnic started I felt as if I was held back and was not able to mingle with anybody. I was seeing everyone having a great time, playing, joking bla bla bla .... but there I was in a corner silently watching everyone. At around 1:45pm I had to leave the picnic as I had another party at my best friend's uncle's house. Over there also I was welcomed happily but once again my silence started killing me. I really wanted to talk and mingle .... unfortunately I couldn't.

The funny part is that I enjoy speaking less. Even my blogger name tells about my character. But now I strongly feel that this is leading me into becoming a social outcast.